Today's mood......my brain is being rediculous at the moment and won't listen to reason.
Shitty days/weeks and months are going to happen, that's what coping mechanisms are for. But sometimes you just want to go with your brain, close your eyes and pretend everything's okay.
Do you know that main thing that is bothering me at the moment? The thing that is bringing my mood down? An untidy and too small a house. We don't have a very big house and that's fine normally, but it's Christmas and we have a wedding in 5 months time, so all the wedding stuff, christmas presents and storage boxes are all in the spare room, which means that our clothes are drying on an airer in the lounge, which is also where the Christmas tree is and also the Hoover as the shoe rack broke so all our shoes are in the hall cupboard where the Hoover normally lives. We need to do a skip run, we have clothes to take to the charity shop, a new shoe rack to build, oh and the garden needs sorting out.
I am fully aware that all this is very much first world problems and and I feel so rediculous saying this, but guess what, mental health can make you feel that way, it can make you feel like the walls are closing in around you and that you want to empty your house out onto the street.
I also know that some of this could be sorted with a good old tidy, but when your head gets into this line of thought, tidying is the last thing you want to to because it all feels too much, it feels like it won't make a difference or that tomorrow it'll be the same again.
So whilst I know what the solution is, I really don't want to do it.
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