When you’re pregnant everyone talks about the pregnancy glow. No one talks about the postpartum blues. Why is that? I have a couple friends who have asked how’s my depression and I’ve appreciated those friends so much. But, how do you gauge your postpartum blues? When I was pregnant everyone told me “sleep now cause you’ll never sleep again.” Thinking it’s because your baby will keep you up right? Not because the insomnia you’ve developed while your baby is actually sleeping peacefully next to you for hours now. The thoughts of just life seems more “real” now, so you stay up. Everyone told me to rest and take it easy. Little did I know I would be working out muscles I’ve never used before just so I could soothe my son to sleep. I won’t ever look at the time and see how long it takes because every moment with him I want to remember. But man, your body will tell you how long it might have been once you’ve finally laid down. So, when I’m really tired and feeling just a little blah, am I just tired or is this the postpartum blues?
Today, Mateo is in his carrier because my arms were telling me I needed a break. My emotions started getting to me because I can do this! I know what my son needs and I can do this! My husband was working. My mom was busy. And I can do this! But I look in the mirror and although I haven’t gotten ready for days, I’m not wearing pants because I’m not going anywhere, and my hair is a mess... I’ve had a glow brighter than I can explain. You may not see it. But I feel it. My son is my light. I wouldn’t trade the life I had before him for anything. Fourth trimester is a real thing and I think we should talk more about it. The amazing, the in between, and the bad. All of it. I’ve been around kids my whole life but nothing will prepare you for being a first time Mama and I’m here for it. I love you #MateoKamaehu
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